Ashes to Amber

It started with silence...
Then came the fire.

I vanished off the radar, no pings, no trace
Told myself I needed space
They called it madness, said I lost the race
But I was building something - out in empty place
A girl had me spinning, cracked from the core
Gave her my name, she walked out the door
Left me with mirrors I couldn’t face
Shards of dreams all over the floor

(Fell for a phantom / danced with her flame)
(Blew out my balance / then took the blame)

I broke into pieces just to feel whole
Lit every bridge with a lighter and hope
Thought love was a savior, but she played a role
Left me lost in the smoke
ASHES TO AMBER
And no one remembered
The boy I used to be
Before she dismembered
My peace / my pace / my poetry

I kept chasing after echoes
Ran through storms in open clothes
Friends turned shadows, all went cold
Couldn’t hold me while I fold
My thoughts were fists, my nights were knives
Begged the past to bring me life
But she was a ghost in borrowed skin
Dragging me where light grows thin

I looked in the mirror and whispered “enough.”
You either drown...
Or rise.

So I stitched up the silence, thread by thread
Learned to walk without my dread
Found gold in rust, strength in the bends
No more bleeding for dead ends
New roots growing under my feet
New rhythm in my heartbeat
Not waiting on a call that never came
Not dancing for a love that plays a game

I broke into pieces just to feel whole
Lit every bridge with a lighter and hope
Thought love was a savior, but she played a role
Left me lost in the smoke
ASHES TO AMBER
But now I remember
I’m more than what broke me
I’m the spark, I’m the ember
No cage / no chain / no forgery

(She was the fire / I was the flame)
(She took the stage / I left the frame)
Now I move slower / Now I move free
Planting new gardens / Becoming me…